Sunday, March 18, 2007

I took the Plunge - 完结篇

The ending is clear. Almost so crystal clear that it hurts (a little).

I did an experiment again sometime last week. The results were known almost immediately.

I am 99% sure that he is not interested in taking a step further. My last conversation with him was purely on work and nothing else. I do not even need to find out anything else from Joanne (GUTS would know who she is) to understand that nothing is ever going to happen, and I should stop. Of course it doesn't help that I'll still have to work with him for a while more till the project ends. But there'll be really soon....I'll make sure of that.

So sorry guys, for the extreme anti-climax ending to this drama which has had such a promising start. Again, its back to square one and I swear from now on, I'll not subject myself to such meaningless and fruitless crushes anymore. From now on, I'll devote myself to work and dizi. And of course friends.

I forced myself to attend an outing (yesterday) with this guy whom my mom match-made me with. I totally hated myself for going. The guy was extremely nice and not too bad looking, and quite ok in height and weight too. In fact everything was good. But there was this big tumble of emotions all rushing in me, and I could not focus on the date at all. Of course it didn't help that he chose an extremely smoky pub for the meeting and the noise level was not that pleasant as well lah. I couldn't feel anything towards him....but I will go out with him again if he asks. I just hope he'll give me some time before he asks again.



我需要时间慢慢关上这道门， 才能安心得转身打开另一扇门
(Corinni would know where these song lyrics originated from)
Luna Esa, 11:16 AM

7 Comments:

dun get too upset... even if he is not interested at this point in time, it doesn't mean you guys can't continue as frens.. there are many fishes out there in the sea.. anyway, this month is supposed to be lousy for horses, according to the Lillian Too fengshui book. will share with you gals more details in email...

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3/18/2007 04:00:00 PM  

I believe that better things are in store for you. Just remember that your friends are behind you all the way. Take care yah!

By Blogger Teddy, at 3/19/2007 08:51:00 AM  

aiyo, don't be too upset. take it as a lesson learn. i'm sure better ones will come along your way. i hve been this road before and i know how it feels. you can be upset but just allow a few days for upset days. get your feet up and open your heart once again. =) hang in there.

BTW, is your office near shenton way?

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3/19/2007 09:50:00 AM  

hey, cheer up ok? I know u will get better soon. Take care!

By Blogger Nalgeney, at 3/19/2007 10:11:00 AM  

What exactly happened?

It's good to go slow - give yourself time to have a proper closure

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3/21/2007 06:55:00 PM  

Everyone: ARIGATO! GAMXIA! You guys are the greatest.

Bluesky: I bought the Lillian Too book too. Cos there happened to be a number of horses in my office..so can share.

Snowystars: Sadly no, my office is not Shenton Way.

By Blogger Luna Esa, at 3/25/2007 04:18:00 PM  

It is not alwasy easy to find the right person to be with so take your time with this.Don't worry or get upset with this kind of experiences...take it on the chin.Move on.There might always be more failures than successes in these matters...because you know what,once you get the one success,it will probably be for life.And then all the failures won't matter anymore. :)

By Blogger Batman, at 3/26/2007 03:06:00 PM  

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