Wah lau, dunno what 倒霉运 I kena-ed just now, cos I had the most horrible lesson with Andy on this supposedly beautiful Sunday morning.

The moment I opened the door, he was already not in a overly-friendly mood (can see from his face lor). But hey man, I should be the one getting angry hor, cos he was almost half an hour late, and he didn't even call to inform me that (which he usually does).

Then he had to start the lesson by making me play the super tough 塔塔尔族舞曲, which I had not had a lot of practice on the last couple of days. Was concentrating more on the 美丽的姑娘. This 塔塔尔族舞曲 focuses a lot on the 双吐音, which sadly is one of my weakest skill. Hence you can imagine how terok my playing was lah. He of course found fault in most of the notes I played, and then in order to correct my 音色, he made me play the same 'so' (as in do re mi fa so) note like 10 times. But each time, he would still complain that I had not gotten it right. Of course idiot, I cannot get it right lah, cos he never even said what I was doing wrong mah...then how the hell you want me to do the correction liddat?? And when I was getting all confused and slightly irritated (he was ALREADY very irritated at this point), I got all stressed up and my 气息 got worse and worse, to the extent where I felt I wasn't even using half of my 丹田 to do the breathing. Afterwhich of course, this gave him another excuse to complain about my lousy breathing techniques and playing skill lor.

Seriously, I was not really feeling too upset over this lah. It was more of like "Where did all this come from hah?" during the lesson. Very scary leh. And to make it even better, his shifu Master Zhan has already agreed to take me in for 2-3 lessons while Andy is overseas in Oct. LAGI EVEN MORE STRESSED LOR!!! I really don't know how I'm going to go through those lessons....I REALLY DON'T KNOW!! I mean like, my basic skills are still so weak, nothing is quite polished yet, my pieces are in a mess......WHY WHY WHY should I still go and see his Master????????????? He should be seeing top students with GREAT playing abilities, and then discuss with them how to improve their MUSICAL TALENT blah blah blah.....not lousy me!!!

Andy even remarked..."He can be rather temperamental at times one"...and the only thought which flashed across my head was "Yar lor, like you lor." Why am I not surprised. Why?

He somehow softened a little when we were going through 美丽的姑娘, cos I was determined to play really well for this piece. No more scolding liao hor! Fortunately he ok-ed the piece and only commented that I should start increasing the speed now that I've gotten most of the notes right. But I could see he was STILL not in a very good mood when the lesson ended.

WTF!

Yes Spy P, when you asked last week why I still kept to my dizi lessons even when I'm so stressed over it.....now I can tell you....I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHY EITHER.

Why hah? I feel like a bit 无聊 paying money to go through both mental and physical torture everyday during practice and lesson...and still have to take shit from the teacher when he's not in a good mood.

Damn idiot lor.