Yup, told my mum over dinner yesterday, that I didn't feel anything towards the guy whom my cousin (his good friend) had introduced to me, and whom I had ONE dinner with last Friday (skipped my precious choir practice leh!). This was after countless pestering from my mum (for the past few weeks), who kept asking if we are ever going to meet up, and when it'll be, and etc etc. It was damn irritating, and I had told her that I definitely would ONLY tell her stuffs about the date when I am comfortable and ready to tell. I don't want to like say, "OK mom, I'm meeting the guy tonight. Wait for my good news....blah blah blah". And then when I come back, I'll happily reveal all the 'juicy' details about the date to everyone in the family. I'm not that drama mama ok. And of course, my mum claims that the reason behind her eagerness was due to the fact that my auntie (cousin's mother) kept fishing for details from her! Cannot stand these AUNTIES!!! Even better, my sister also kena my mum's constant nagging, to the point where my sis got quite angry "哎呀 你自己去问姐啦! 我知道也不会告诉你的啦!"

Anyway, my mum was surprisingly not too disappointed after hearing my 'confession' yesterday, and did not even try to probe further as to why I did not like (again not = dislike) Ken (that's the guy's name). I was, of course very very relieved over that, as I hate it when people ask "Why you reject him har? 你到底嫌他什么 leh?" This statement never fails to make me feel like I'm some extremely choosy and picky person! 没有 lor, 我没嫌他什么! 我哪有资格呢!

Ken is a nice guy ok. Its just that I don't feel we are compatible at all. But he was the first guy who had bothered to find out how I thought of him after our first date. He actually smsed me and asked that, and even hinted if I think he could be THE ONE for me. Usually the guy (in the past) will just ask me out again, and after I give some feeble excuse for not joining him, he will eventually get the hint and stop smsing me again. But Ken is really the first who 'dared' to ask me direct if we had any chance. I truly respect him for that cos it shows he's not afraid of rejections. How many guys can actually boast about that?

I spent quite some time figuring out how to put my feelings across to him in the most gentle and non-hurtful way (nearly died!). In the end, my sms to him went something like: "I feel you're a very frank and amiable person, and I think you'll make a very GOOD FRIEND (caps of course not included in the sms lar). You should go for more matchmaking dates (He mentioned this was the first he attended) so you can know more ladies!" Its so fortunate that Ken did get my hint and graciously said it was still very nice knowing me. I felt slightly like a 魔鬼 after reading this remark. But this is still better than to 拖泥带水 and lead people on right?

There....that was how my second blind date for 2006 ended eventually. Cannot say I'm really looking forward to the next one, cos a bit tired and disappointed liao. Sometimes, I just wish that I could stop meeting all my aunties' expectations (on getting hitched) and carry on my life doing the things I love best....aerobics, choir, baking, flute, music. There's just so many many difficulties in this finding-life-partner path. Really am feeling quite quite SIAN liao.....