To be or not to be

Had a somewhat disturbing conversation with an old Pri Sch friend recently....it was disturbing for the reason that what she said brought some upsets to what I always felt was the right way to view the issue of BGR. As usual, she (we call her N) asked me if I was attached yet...and of which I said no. Then she started on about me being too choosy (really...there's no guys out there for me to even start getting choosy on) and how I must lower my sights and expectations and start being more adventurous and date guys whom I would have thought I was not compatible with.

Actually, I can understand how the people around me are so concerned about my marital status....its like I'm already 26, and I dun even have any bf yet. They always say....if I want to make full use of my youth, I should start now...if not, once I reach the 30s, things would get even more difficult, esp when I begin to gain wrinkles, and the biological clock starts to wind down..... However, as always, I cannot bring myself to find a partner, just for the reason that I'm getting older or that everyone else around me are mostly either attached or married. These would be the wrong reasons to get a partner. I like to think that, I would start taking the proactive approach to find a bf, only when I start feeling the need for lifelong companionship and when I'm ready to start spending a life with another person. These would be the right reasons, or so I believed.

However, my friend N asked me, what if when you finally feel the need, and when you finally feel ready...it gets too late?? To that, I had no answer, cos I definitely did not see this coming. I had always thought it wouldn't take too long for me to feel ready, and that it would ever be too late....but after listening to N, it got me pondering real hard.....I definitely do not want to grow old alone....but its like I'm so comfortable with being single right now....Grrr...dilemma....but I do feel slightly envious whenever I see how my friends look so happy with their significant other, and when they have someone to share their happy thoughts, as well as bad moments, 24 hours everyday and at anytime.....

After thinking through, I decided I had better start doing something about this soon....I'm not going to wait anymore....even if it did not yield any results....at least nobody can say I haven't tried!! Maybe I could try going for the speed-dating stuffs offered by SDU (I'm a member already)...I used to cringe at the idea of meeting guys this way.......but no harm trying.......I guess.