Midst of Everything

Ok....everyone in the choir is getting both panicky and excited, now that our Brunei trip is only 3 days away. For me, its more towards the 'going nuts' mode.....these few nights, I kept getting nightmares about the coming performance. Either I forget what next to play, or my scorebook drops out of the piano, or I play all the wrong notes (which can get scarily possible!!!) Wah....so 'exciting' man! Its like I'm going through the entire piano exam process yet another time. Trust me, that's really a traumatic experience....in fact, I count all the practical piano exams as the most significant traumatic events I had to go through in my childhood. Once you face the examiner and start playing your pieces, your mind goes totally blank and your fingers and hands freeze. When I said freeze, I really mean it!!! They just harden, like when you visit those cold cold countries. Of course, that can also be due to the terrible aircon in those exam rooms...dunno why all those ang moh examiners like to turn the aircon to the lowest possible temperature. Its like that every year!!! Can you imagine a mere child being subjected to such a process every year? I used to really hate, loathe, dread it when I was young, and I would envy all my friends who didn't have to go through all these and had to only worry about their school work and ECAs. When I was finally allowed to stop my piano lessons during my Sec 3 year (due to increasing amount of school work and coming '0' levels), I was so ecstatic!!! I swore off piano for many many years after that (you could see the layer of dust on the poor instrument), and only played when my mom asked me (put it 'begged') to do it.

However, when I started to work and joined the choir, dunno for what reason, I started to fall in love with the instrument again. It felt good playing tunes people like to hear, and to play something I like to hear as well. In the past, my mom had to scold and threaten me, before I would practise on my piano. But now, I could spend 2 hours on it, and still have the energy to continue till I master the piece. Especially when I'm now the choir pianist, the responsibilty to play well is even greater. But I see it as a challenge, and try not to panic so much. Nowadays, its my mom who will ask me to stop playing the piano so much, so that she can watch her VCDs drama in peace. Haha....

Ok...seems like I'm really getting out of point in this blog.....I'm supposed to be saying how we are in the midst of preparation for the Brunei trip...heh heh......actually not much to say about that lah. Most of us are quite looking forward to the trip, esp those who have not travelled with the choir before (last year we went to HK...shiok man!). I see it more as yet another opportunity to form bonds with my choir mates, as there's nothing as good as an overseas trip to get the choir more united and stronger. Well, will continue to write more before the trip starts.